I wake up thinking about a movie I saw one. The main character dies, I forget how, but he's only half dead and one part of him is lying in a coma while the other part of him is wandering the world, kind of in limbo. The point is, so long as he's not completly dead, a piece of him is trapped in this in-between place. And this crazy plot from a movie that I can't remember the title too, gives me hope. That maybe I might be lying somewhere in a coma and my family is bending over me and everyone is worrying and filling my hospital room with flowers. Because if I'm not dead there could still be a way to stop it and that's all I really want.
So when my mom drops me off just before third period starts, I can't wait to go to school. I have a gut feeling that I'll find the answers that I'm looking for here. I don't know how, or why I'm stuck in this time loop, but the more I think about it, the more convinced I am that there's a reason for it.
Opening the car door, I smile once at my mother and tell her that I'll see her later but before I can make it to the enterance, something stops me. It's the idea that's been bugging me for the past twenty-four hours, what I was trying to talk to my friends about in the Tank: how you might never really know. How you might be walking down the street one day and then, nothing but blackness.
"I'll see you soon Hayles." My mom smiles at me softly, adjusting the sunglasses on the edge of her nose as she goes to pull away.
"I love you Mom." I call out before she could leave, even though it feels weird to say it. All I know is that I had to tell my mom that before I could never say that again.
"I love you too baby." My mom nods, waving goodbye before pulling out of the school parking lot.
Smiling to myself I walk towards the school making a small promise to myself: that tonight there will be no accident.
And whatever this thing is, a bubble or hiccup in time, I'm busting out of it. So as the bell rings for third period, I start sprinting to chemistry. Sliding into my seat before the teacher can notice me sneak in, I take a deep breath and place my purse down next to my feet before looking to my left to see that I sat next to Lauren, again.
The quiz goes off, same as yesterday and the day before, except by now I am able to answer the question by myself.
"Keep it." Lauren whispers to me once the quiz is over. "You're going to need a pen." I start to pass it back to her, as usual, but something in her expression sparks a memory. I remember coming home after that pool party in seventh grade and seeing my face in the mirror look exactly like that, like someone had handed me a winning lottery ticket and told me that my life was about to change.
"Thank you." I nod, stuffing the pen into my purse before looking up at the smiling girl. "You shouldn't be so nice to me Lauren."
"Why is that?" Lauren asks, looking at me completely stunned.
"Because I'm not nice to you." I whisper, the words coming out of my mouth before I can stop them.
"You're nice Hayley." Lauren starts, but when her eyes move to focus on her hands folded in her lap, I know that she doesn't mean it.
"Exactly." I sigh, nodding my head to the newfound silence.
Lauren and I don't talk for the rest of the class, but I leave chem feeling good, like I've done the right thing.